why am i fighting for something that wasn't even mine to begin with? is it stupid of me to want you, to want us?

i ask myself if it's worth it, if it's worth all the pain and heartache if it's worth me waiting and waiting for you to just say something. It's easy for everyone else to say "just forget about it", "his not worth it", "move on" but they don't know what i see you in you the little spark that ignites my heart. everytime i talk to you now it always feels awkward i wish we were back at square one to just being friends, maybe it wouldn't have fuck things up this badly. i miss you